I Should Have Known Better

The worst feeling of betrayal is the one that comes from our selves.

When we’re betrayed by another we can blame, fight, and leave. But when it’s our own system that led us to this place - we end up doing the same, but even harder.

We fight, reject and abandon our selves for the mistakes that led us to this moment.

Because when things don’t turn out the way we hoped, it’s hard not to look back and think:

I should have known better.

I should have made a different choice.

I should never have trusted myself to begin with.

And yet - when you are betrayed by another you may be willing to hear them out, give them a second chance, try and understand their reasoning.

Can you bring that same level of compassion to your self?

What were the circumstances that led you here?

What are the needs that you overrode in an effort to achieve your goals?

What are the parts in you that are still being ignored and crying out for your attention?

How much of you is allowed to be in the space you occupy?

To rebuild trust, remember how you got to this place to begin with.

How you sat in reflection and consideration, gathered information and then paired it with your own thoughts, experience and insight.

And how you made the best decision in that moment - regardless of the consequence you may be sitting with now.

And to the version of you who did all that sitting and weighing, who took what she knew and hoped for a good outcome for the person you would become:

Thank you. I appreciate you. I still trust you.

Now let’s go make some more mistakes together.

In trust, Karen